Still trying

I'm still trying to find myself.

I've been lost. Lost into nothingness. I thought I already knew myself. But I guess I was wrong.

Sorry to those people I hurt. Those people I left behind. Sorry to my family who had been awfully worried about me. Also, sorry for making you shed another tear, my little dark angel. Sorry.

But enough of it. Its now time to say thank you for always being there beside me. Thank you for the wonderful messages, though some of it broke my heart after realizing how much it causes you pain, but still, it only showed me that you love me now. Thank you.

To my brothers, the three J's of my life, Kuya Jawu, Ja and Jr. Thank you for the concern and sorry for making you worry about me.

To my mom, sorry for making you cry. Sorry if I gave you sleepless nights when i tried to run away.

But hope that you all understand that all I wanted is to find the "me" I used or supposed to be.

But here's what I can say for now, I am very thankful for having you all in my life and it made me love all of you more.

Jae Fen Yoon

Misery

I cry myself to sleep again tonight
'Cause I cannot hold you tight
I wish I could see you again tomorrow
To take all this sorrow, sorrow
I'm hollow

When I touch you
Can you feel it
When I need you
Can you give it
When I look in your eyes
Can you see me
When I fall, fall
Will you catch me, catch me, catch me

These tears on my face
Are for you
I wish that I could hold you
Touch you, feel you
My heart is bleeding can't you see
I wish that you could hold me
Touch me, feel me

When I touch you
Can you feel it
When I need you
Can you give it
When I look in your eyes
Can you see me
When I fall, fall
Will you catch me?

Misery is what I feel
When you're not around
So I can't heal
Misery is what I feel

Goodbye

I'm sorry for everything I had said,
the thought of me making you cry repeats in my head.
I'm sorry I can never make you happy,
inside I feel so crappy.
I'm sorry for wasting your time,
wanted to make you have a happy life.
I'm sorry for I have failed,
never do anything right.
I'm sorry that I had to say sorry
I promise my love, my world, my girl, my perfect dark angel,
that I would never say those awful things
what hurts the most is that I broke my promise, made you cry,
most of all my dark angel
I'm sorry that I have to say goodbye.

Stupidity

Everyday I wake up
Hoping to get a fresh start
Praying I can undo
The mistakes I've done to you.

Everyday it's the same thing,
My memories come to haunt me.
I never knew it'd come to this
And now I'm regretting it.

Basically I'm saying sorry..
Sorry for my stupidity.
If you find it in your heart to forgive me,
I thank you with full sincerity.

But if you find it too hard to do so,
It's all right, who can blame you?
If there's even anyone to blame, it's me..
Me and my stupidity..

抱歉

如果我做着此，我抱歉我的天使。 但是我认为这是您的最佳的方式能容易地忘掉我。 如果我已经，导致您心伤我抱歉。 我将想念您。

这首歌曲是为您

这别的再见歌曲
我用尽词说
多么坏我感觉
多么哀伤和真正
当某人说再见
并且我没有准备着哭泣

这别的再见歌曲
我感到词现在是来
并且他们显露多么坏我感觉
起因您不是来回到我

我听见您的想法
我听见他们在我的心脏徘徊的您的每个词
我看见我听见您的声音的您的面孔
当两只眼睛闭上我听见您呼吸
我未曾认为这天将来
当您会说再见

这别的再见歌曲
这别的再见歌曲
我感到词现在是来
并且他们显露多么坏我感觉
起因您不是来回到我

这别的再见歌曲
我用尽词说
多么坏我感觉多么哀伤和真正
当某人说再见
并且我没有准备着哭泣

这别的再见歌曲
这别的再见歌曲
我感到词现在是来
并且他们显露多么坏我感觉
起因您不是来回到我

我听见您的想法
我听见您的每个词
他们在我的心脏徘徊
我看见我听见您的声音的您的面孔
当两只眼睛闭上我听见您呼吸
我未曾认为这天将来
当您会说再见

这别的再见歌曲
这别的再见歌曲
我感到词现在是来
并且他们显露多么坏我感觉
起因您不是来后面

The other one was not my last post afterall

The Art Of Letting Go - Mikaila

"The Art Of Letting Go"

Put away the pictures.
Put away the memories.
I put over and over
Through my tears
I've held them till I'm blind
They kept my hope alive
As if somehow that I'd keep you here
Once you believed in a love forever more?
How do you leave it in a drawer?

Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning,
Learning the art of letting go.

Try to say it's over
Say the word goodbye.
But each time it catches in my throat
Your still here in me
And I can't set you free
So I hold on to what I wanted most
Maybe someday we'll be friend's forever more
Wish I could open up that door

Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning,
Learning the art of letting go

Watching us fade
What can I do?
But try to make it through
the pain of one more day
Without you

Where do I start, to live my life alone?
I guess I'm learning, only learning,
Learning the art of letting go.

Hopefully wouldn't be my last post. :(

Forgive me love

Forgive me love
For I must go
And decide for myself
What I don not know

Forgive me love
For walking away
I didn't plan for this to happen
I didn't want it this way.

Forgive me love
Please wait for me
I must do this
If only you'd see.

Forgive me love
I do love you so
I don't know what else to say
So with this I'll go.

Forgive me love
As I walk away
Forgive me love
But it has to be this way.